Friday, August 28, 2009

It's funny,

1. How I know you well yet I think I don't know you well enough.
2. The way others are perturbed by whatever we are talking about because we seem to be conversing in a different language, to them that is. We call that a strange yet similar frequency. So, we understand each other.
3. How we can act silly and stupid in front of each other and can’t stop laughing our asses off.
4. How a single glance or eye contact can replace speech and from there, we either make faces or start stifling our chuckles.
5. How we have the innate ability to make anything funny and that includes, food. Remember, CJ7 & Bean?
6. How we can be ridiculously honest with each other.
7. How I can’t continue listing this because I really can’t describe our connection in words.
8. Or then again, I really don't know how it works.

Love la love.

It’s sad, frustrating and disturbing,

1. To realize that in less than in 22 days time, you’ll be flying off to the other side of the world to pursue your dreams.
2. To live with the heart wrench that I know I’ll be missing you,
(i) your laughter,
(ii) your jokes,
(iii) your real personality,
(iv) your msn chats with me during our office hours,
(v) your company for ciggs and drinks almost every evening after work,
(vi) your proximity to me (10 mins walk),
(vii) calling 6536 1009 – “Tracy please.”,
(viii) your bitching with me,
(ix) your patience with all my whining and griping,
(x) your understanding,
(xi) the times we had spent together anywhere (especially BKK),
(xii) or maybe just your presence.
(xiii) Maybe. Just you.
3. To know that you’ll only be back in June or July 2010.
4. To accept the fact that I can only talk to you over msn.
5. To only be able to webcam with you instead of meeting you up physically.
6. To not hear your laughter within my space.
7. To realize that the real friend that I truly love (mushy, I know), is all alone in an unfamiliar environment.
8. To not be able to club with you and watch your stupid moves and then laugh at it.
9. That FUCK LAAAAAAAAA. I KNOW I’LL JUST BE MISSING YOU LIKE FUCK.

Miss la miss.

Yet, a part of me is already anticipating your return because,


1. We can BKK, Pattaya, maybe Rendang or wherever together again.
2. We can Loi Ketong, Pad Thai, spit watermelon seeds, attempt driving a tuk-tuk again.
3. We can derive pleasures by acting drunk, smoke our lungs black, looking at the coin drop, screaming “Heart Attack!”
3. We can spend time people watching with our drinks and ciggs in hand again.
4. We can sit down and listen to each other’s stories again.
5. We can just party and ftw again.
6. So many endless stuff that I can do with you.
7. Maybe, definitely, it’s just you.

Wait la wait.

I promise okay. Next year, I’ll save all my leave. Just to have fun with you. I’ll take care of all the necessities, all you need to do is to come back, throw your luggage and off we go! Don’t bother about counting money or exchanging currencies or whatever. Just FTW –AGAIN-.

Maybe you can go back to 6536 1009 for your summer break internship, then we can resume what we are having now. (That’s quite an idea, no?) Or maybe find somewhere EVEN nearer.

It’s quite weird to say this. But I guess you already know, -from our speechless conversations-, that you are someone who’s really important to me, someone whom I keep close to my heart, someone whom I can trust and believe in, someone whom I know, do not take friendship as a game or friends as their pawns. From the bottom of my heart –hmmm, too corny-, from deep deep in me, I love you, I’ll miss you and please don’t be paranoid over –we’ve discussed this-. So you! Better take care of yourself and not fuck around (not literally) and finally, do us proud!

TRACY WANK, FREDLATIO KOREK-MO, YOU GO GIRL!
IMMA GONNA STILL BE HERE FOR YOU YEAH.


Love la love. I’ll go to the Departure hall with you in 2009 and I’ll see you at the Arrival again in mid-2010, yes?

What to do?
Who ask me to take up 5 slots. (:

Lemon you.