i'm flyin off tonight. i'm goin to shanghai. but why am i not excited? i like things to be the way it is now. one week. i'm be away for a week. many things can happen in a week. many things can be lost in a week. what's one week? 7 days. 168 hours .

what will happen after i come back? will things be the same or will things change? i dont know. i dont wanna know. i dont wanna think. but i can't stop myself.

i'm gonna pack my luggage now. pack my clothes, my stuff, my happiness, my excitement. but i can never pack my regrets, my sorrows, my tears in . clare, u're useless. stop thinking.

is this all , an april fool joke ?