you never really did crack your brain over how much someone can actually love you right?
or how much you can hurt the person who loves you so much, with just a simple sentence.
did you ever think for the person's feelings when you're talking to her.
did you ever consider how she'll feel when you speak or do something without thinking?
you're not living your life alone now. you're not single. you're attached. you're living for 2 persons.
boy, do you even get what i'm saying?!

i love you. you know i do.
dont be unfair to me alright? yes, i'm committing too much into our relationship. who do i have to blame? and i can't blame you totally either. even if i could, i can't bear to.
how much do you know about how i really felt.
blame it on myself, cos i never really told you.

committing too much and committing alot has a very big difference. to me.


can you show me how do you cherish someone you love?

i can't get to sleep. somebody, knock me out. please.

just read one of my sec sch friend's blog on her suicide attempt. yes, i feel very very concerned about her. but, since i'm that close to her already, i think it's best to keep it to myself. shall not go on to ramblings about how selfish and how fucked up it is to commit suicide. it's just shit that you tell someone on the verge of suicide when you don't even understand him/her.

anyway, yes. it left me with a thought. on how much our parents actually loves us. yes yes, you're right. i shall start nagging about how every parents love their own children. hahahaha. i was just kidding. duh. i love my mama and my papa. yes i do !

i dont like seein ppl around me change for the better i meant, worse. the feeling sucks. cos' it just sucks lah. it's like i'm friends with another person cos' i start not to understand him/her. i love being around ppl. and i love understanding their thoughts, their everything. cos' i know, it's a nice feeling being understood by someone u thought whom is not close to you. ya ya ya. i'm rambling again. bear with it folks. =) let's call that particular individual Guaikia. Guaikia is a friend that i've known for quite long. from his name, you all will think he very guai right. yes, but no. he's changing so rapidly and i dont know due to what. (if you think i'm referring to you, don't get offended PLS) and back to what i was saying, i feel like i'm starting not to understand what Guaikia is thinking or doing. cos he's like doing so many things just to what? attract attention? prove to others he's not a guaikia? prove what man? i mean, you are who you are. you don't have to prove to anyone anything. u DIG ? ! brrrrrr.