Slept at 5am on Friday night. Woke up at 1pm and couldn't sleep anymore. Ate Banana Nut Crunch cos there's nothing much to eat at home. And I nua-ed all the way till it's time to meet Tracy at Harbourfront. According to her, it's a stupid dress code cos it's all white. No skirt no shorts so I'm left with one choice. White jeans. GOODNESS. But I realised that it ain't that bad afterall.

I know my phone very kuku. I think imma phone killer and this phone is the only survivor. Will iphone die on me too?

Worked at km8 for their closing party. I swear it's madness. There are photos I ripped off Facebook so, credits to them!
I returned home wearing a badly-stained-worn-thrice Dorothy Perkins jeans. Ferlynn concluded that Tracy can throw her Peninsula jeans and I should bleach and scrub mine. HAHAHAHA. Tracy's jeans looks like "chap chye png auntie".

And! I know this is random. But I didn't eat until 8pm today! VERY PRO RIGHT! :D

The pay wasn't very fulfilling but it's a fun experience anyhow! So thank you all you people who made my night! :D

I am such a loser now because I don't have a job and I wake up everyday thinking, "What should I do today?" Anyone feeling the same way as me?

So I'm busy working for Carlsberg, giving tuition, work for km8's closing party later on. I'm still trying to be busy working out. But I'm such a bum.

I'm having this really bad cough and I have no idea how to kill that virus. As in seriously, look at my phlegm.
This is a very random picture of my disgusting supper cos' I was too lazy to whip up anything to eat. Lettuce, carrots and beans. Goodness.BYE!

I seriously still don't understand. After all that we had as friends, you can say all those hurting things without even considering the extent of how it's gonna hurt our friendship. I never once harped on the topic about your blog. All I asked was just one simple question and you could have just told me a simple "No.". Simple?

Whatever that I've replied is just a response to whatever hurtful shit you've sent me. You said all kinda shits that night and now you tell me you don't have the courage to talk to me until you went home after the drinking session you had with whoever and you're sorry that you've hurt me.

I've made things so clear one year back. But till date, I still don't see whatever changes we have between us. It has never became better. Maybe all that I did wrong was to delude myself that we've changed. But the fact is nothing has changed. I read through our past msn conversation. April 2008 till now. The issues are still the same. All the same.

I read through your texts again. Then I read through that apology on msn. It doesn't go. It's like 2 very different people talking to me. I don't have the strength, patience, heart, endurance or anything else to continue anymore. If there's no mutual acceptance and understanding. I have no idea how this is gonna continue.

As I've said, I'm not a friend who will always go out and be crazy and have fun with you but I'll always be around if you're down and need me. I'm this kinda person. Now I don't know why I should be around all the time when you told me you don't even need it.

I don't understand why our friendship should be measured by all these superficial shits. You can find these shits with others and think that your friendship is so superb, go ahead. You've pushed me away many times but I keep coming back. Pride is something that I've put down in front of you.

Baby, I don't call you baby for nothing. But I'm not around to be a clown. I'm not around to tolerate all these hurtful words. I call you baby cos' you're someone dear to me. I don't call you baby so that I can be laughed at or be the subject of an inside joke.

aiya '

i also will jealous about this kinda thing

but afterall, that's human what

but yeah la, there's a drift between us and we know it more or less. but no matter what, at least we're both maintaining our whatevership

In short, I call you baby and I don't mind so many stupid things because I love you as a friend, alot. I don't even care whoever say what cos' prolly they are feeling even more insecure or jealous than I am.

I didn't reply to your apology is cos' I don't even know what to say to you anymore. Whatever that I'll say would only be a repeat of whatever I've said a year back. Pointless. We'd so much memories. Prolly it just didn't mean anything to you.

Memories?

you very tired lehhhhhhhhh

tell ur mama i miss her

tell ur papa i miss him

tell ur rabbit i dont like him/her

tell ur bottle of alcohol i'm coming

you're my sunshine, my darling sunshine

u make me happy

when skies are grey

without you is like cny without angpow

angpow without money

cny without oranges

im here im here

so there's still angpow

oranges and money

i love you baby

love you too

anyway if ur nick is sayin us, u still mean alot to me.

ok sry

no more sorry's (:

i dont know, like for the first time, there's like got tension between both

ahhh. it's over alrdy. so don't mention it anymore aite

alright ily

loves (:

not important

impt is now you all okay can alrdy

if anyone dare say you

come hide behind me.

Sweet huh? But I'm letting go. It upsets me so much.

Y'know, after reading your text, I realised how apt your blog song describes us?

It upsets me girl when you're constantly accusing. We're fighting this war baby when both of us are losing. What happened to working it out. We fall into this place where you ain't backing down and I ain't backing down so what the hell do we do now?

The dark eyeshadow that doesn't look dark at all.



It's a very bad day. Was working just now cos' Carlsberg had this new product. It's called Kronenbourg Blanc. A French beer with a fruity white beer with citrus notes. I've tried it and it's really refreshing. A ladies' beer, I'll call it.

Anyway, I suffered from insomnia last night so I couldn't wake up by 2pm. Instead, I slept all the way till 3.30pm. Goodness. I rushed through my bath and my make up and I had to walk all the way to the ATM machine so I can cab! Just so you know, my place is relatively quiet so it's really inaccessible. My god. I don't usually put on dark eyeshadow, rather, I have never done it myself. The only times I don smoky eyes make up was done by my make up artist that's all. But I think I did quite an okay job.

The day was a bad start. I went to Bala and Sarah, my really nice manager/supervisor had to slap on layers and layers of concealer and bronzer to cover up my tattoo cos we had to tie the shirts up revealing out midriffs. That's one. Next was when we all realised that my M size skirt was literally dropping. I wasn't confident I could wear S that's why I told Sarah to get me M instead. Then, my socks were too thick for my boots so I had to wear them without my socks. It sucks, totally.

So I started work. It was okay at first. But as the sun set and it got really dark in Bala. I couldn't really see well. It was free flow Kronenbourg for the night because it's a launching campaign. I served the 'Carlsberg' table, meaning all the big shots in Carlsberg are sitting there. Someone elbowed my tray and FUCK, the whole glass on my tray spilled onto one guy and splashed onto 2 others. I nearly wanted to act like I fainted.

So, work ended with Clare being really traumatized by that event. Colin, Bala's manager was nice enough to offer us comfort food after that.

BIG BIG SIGH.



Random. Hello Mandy.

Alright, new blog url with a brand new look. But this brand new look is like a lil too over-narcissist. Goodness. Can someone tell me how to make this vain photo a tad smaller so that I've more space for my posts? I've struggled for a night and I'm still lost. ):

Mj-ed with Jasmine and Mandy on Tuesday and over one night, BF and me lost alot because Mandy is damn pro at 5 tai self-draw and Jasmine, together with her hubby, is really lucky. I think it's the pregnant mummy's luck.

I got home at eightish this morning and I knocked out. Was supposed to visit the dentist cos I'm getting braces but I was too lazy. Was supposed to play Wii with BF also but by the time I got to his place, his bro wanted to bring it to camp. So we didn't play Wii as well!

Anyway, I got my results and they were quite sucky. Okay, half sucky.

AY 2008/2009 OCTOBER SEMESTER
Business Accounting 2 ----- B
(I've struggled)
Advanced Civil Procedure ----- D+
(I fucked the main paper)
Arbitration & Alternative Dispute Resolution ----- C+
(I loathe this subject)
Insurance Law & Practice ----- B
(I did well for main paper! Cos I had a C for my project. WASTED. Goes to show I can't do charts as well as written reports.)
Intellectual Property ----- D+
(Another heavy subject that I fucked)
Trusts, Wills & Probate ----- B
(UNEXPECTED. TOTALLY. I thought it's gonna be quite bad.)
Student Internship Programme ----- Pass

Academic Status: COMPLETED COURSE OF STUDY FOR THE DIPLOMA IN LAW AND MANAGEMENT

Hello people! I'm a graduate! Bye bye Temasek Poly. But, where should I head from here? Shucks.

Anyway, photos that we've taken on our way over to Jasmine's on Tuesday. I was damn chui cos I was too lazy to make up properly.

DoubleO to celebrate the end of school for all of us. It's like suddenly, we're no longer freshies, rather, we've graduated. So that night was a hell loads of fun for us.


Our incomplete group photo.
The girls. I like this photo cos my boobs looks big. Hahahaha. Disgusting.That's me as the alcoholic, like always. Getting my hands on some once I step in.

That's my small boy plus joker. Irwin.Sharifah and her really sharp chin. She loves chicken wings.

Farah. The hot hot malay girl, I like.

Winston, how can I describe him. Hmmm.
Tracy, I think she's trying to violate me. Rachel, why do everyone like kissing me?

Will, the very muscular bitch.
Jackson, the tooty turn cute guy.
Ah Jun, not a law student but my lil' bro nevertheless.
Here comes Jo. Who looks very gone.
Jo likes to stick out her hand like paparazzi's taking photos of us.
I am ashamed to say I have very bad slouching problem.
But I am proud to let you all know. That I have shed some weight. As you all can see. :D
This photo makes my face look slim!
Haha, Tracy doesn't understand why we have to tango to R&B.
I started fooling around and none of them can tahan me.
See! Her face so reluctant.
I think she's smiling so blissfully cos' she's resting on my boobs. So not counted.
Rachel only concentrates on taking pretty photos.
But okay la, she's different. She's still very nice.
But BF's nicer. My typical "I-want-my-honey" face and pose.
So I ran up and jumped onto him. He still genuinely very happy you see! Told you BF's the best.
So I just stayed there blissfully.
So sweet right. (:

Yayness! I'm going to Bangkok and Genting with BF. I'm getting girlfriends to come along too! I shall start planning now.

Anyway, I was just thinking. If you don't like me or have something against me. Say it to my face or just show it directly. What's with "ooops..."?

Cowardly creatures.

End of school. End of poly life. End of studies for now. What am I gonna do? Goodness.
Had fun for the past 4 days with my friends, BF, family, people around me that I love so much. Gotta start planning how my life is gonna go on from here. Photos up on facebook which is so much more convenient. I'll prolly just rant here for all I want. (:

Because she would ask me why I loved her
By Christopher Brennan

If questioning would make us wise
No eyes would ever gaze in eyes;
If all our tale were told in speech
No mouths would wander each to each.

Were spirits free from mortal mesh
And love not bound in hearts of flesh
No aching breasts would yearn to meet
And find their ecstasy complete.

For who is there that lives and knows
The secret powers by which he grows?
Were knowledge all, what were our need
To thrill and faint and sweetly bleed?.

Then seek not, sweet, the "If" and "Why"
I love you now until I die.
For I must love because I live
And life in me is what you give.

Life in me, is what you give. ily honey.